"ugh... why cant i just tell you how much i love you? its almost pathetic...and ever since she left...i cant stop thinking about you. please. Hear me out... i want to tell you these things...I just can't word this how it keeps playing in my head. It sounds perfect to tell you. I'm blabbering like an idiot i know but...it's hard to ignore you... You want me to be open? okay, love When you said 'you'll have me back next week' i realize that you were talking about how you got to the elementary school to work on your teacher cadet class...but...when you said that, it made my heart flutter for a moment. that sounds silly.
I want to tell you that i...i love you..."
Sorry for bothering you with this guys...but...ever since my past girlfriend left, ive been missing her more than ever the past few months but now, i have a new girl i would like to share my love with. But i dont quite know how to tell her.
I dont mean to keep bugging DevART with all of this mushy, lovey, sappy love stuff but... that's how i am sometimes and...i just can't deny her any longer
I love you Lizz ~ ♥ ♥
PS: if any of my watchers have the name Liz or Lizzie. im sorry. im not talking about you okay. kayz. okaythnxbye...
Number 1. Because i can Number 2. I need something that i feel that i can accomplish Number 3. Planning to finish this by 2o11!! Number 4. ...idk. i'll stick with this i suppose XD
I see alot of Alex in some of these ^^ ugh... alex i dont see you enough
Check for updates below the list too!
1. new year - almost done!! 2. together - in progress! 3. eye-glasses 4. reading 5. family 6. sad pain 7. sky 8. the future 9. opposite 10. smiles 11. letters 12. just in case 13. fallen leaves 14. pout 15. nap 16. friends forever 17. profile 18. birthday 19. alone - almost done!! 20. black and white 21. Untitled 22. winter 23. good fortune 24. flowers 25. students 26. at the movies 27. in the rain 28. sunlight 29. pure 30. Christmas 31. snack time 32. eyes 33. confused 34. the window 35. covered up 36. bright lights 37. feel 38. ribbons - in progress!! 39. try again 40. contact 41. baths 42. summer time 43. pets 44. anniversary 45. thank you 46. hands 47. side jobs 48. in the dark 49. sick 50. shoulders 51. my love 52. weekend 53. cakes 54. adults 55. en route 56. delays 57. it is warm 58. hobbies 59. fish 60. powerful wind 61. appearances from behind 62. songs 63. money 64. puzzle 65. candle light 66. six 67. lips - in progress!! 68. conversation 69. on the hill 70. wings 71. hats 72. charm 73. shrinking 74. music 75. bare feet 76. alcoholic beverages - Alex, make your mark!! (in progress!!) 77. insomnia 78. plays 79. too shy 80. blues - soon to be in progress!! 81. zero 82. fruits 83. hopes 84. forest 85. blessing 86. absent 87. character 88. reds 89. cute 90. greed 91. glad 92. whites 93. dawn 94. fantasies 95. crews 96. lullaby 97. night skies 98. warmth 99. first day 100. last days
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Well... today is a good day. Crankin' the Owl City and feeling good... One day.....i'll finally be so happy, i wont have to see his horrid face any longer...because he'll drown in my mind and be sent back to Hell where he came from...You can choose your host... but the host can fight back >8)
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Lastly ugh... im sorry to those in which i promised art and other things (gifts or prizes for kiri and stuff) 2oo9 was a bad year...especially for my art. I have been swallowed by school and over break, even though i DID promise art (again, not satisfying my promises) i haven't stopped drawing... i mean I do draw ALOT when im not online but i have a huge pile of stuff that's not finished that needs to be done... Secondly, I feel like i keep letting people down...online and in real life. there's so much that i say that i dont do...im sorry to those who i got their hopes up and such with seeing new art from me... all i ask is that you give me a chance to redeem myself... but I need some time to get some priorities straight. My grades were slipping and im not focused. sorry but i need to set some things going in school then i will get back to artwork. (next semester will be so much better...i mean damn...)
This sememster i had 3 core classes and 1 elective...my core classes were clashing with projects, lots of hw and other things... i eventually became lazy and just quit working (i.e. i would draw or doodle and NOT do hw) but im trying to break that habit. i know what comes out of hard work... (hard work = good grades = praise = eventually a good life = happiness)... but it's just getting there...
Also (ugh sorry guys... im opening up the flood gates now) 2oo9 was a very hard year for me. it started off with a bad argument between my family and a bf that i had (who, thankfully, stopped obsessing over me) and me... i was in a bad state there and it just went south. family matters became worse with a few deaths that gripped us and also the memory of my uncle (even gone 4 years) still gets to us around Valentine's and Christmas. I started seeing my guidance counselor more in 2oo9 than i ever have before.
She said that i was in a state of severe depression. but... im trying to cure it now. trying to stay... optimistic... but there's certain things (in which one is losing a very dear lover) that still grip me.
But... this year is a fresh start. I hope that it all goes well.
Things to look forward to are in my sights! i have a new girl that i would like to share my love with, July will mark me and ~BoNosKG's 1 year anniversary, my artwork is continuing to improve on a monthly basis now ^^, and... well...im looking on the brighter side of life now.
2/3rds...you will not have my soul...Blank face... you sill not have my sanity...and Him....he will not have my life...
• I think that to let you guys know how many chars i have, i'll name them all... may i remind you that these are off the top of my head and there will most likely be names added or removed. these are in no particular order but hopefully, as my art (and chars and stories and worlds/regions) get more organized ^^ well... i hope you enjoy ^^ I have alot of them!!!!!!
Wow! So far, it's 1o4!!! wow... many of these are abandoned and won't be used again unless i have a proper place for them... well...when i find (or don't find) a place for my neutral characters, this will be updated
Hope you got thru all of those XD
Lets see who you guys know out of these guys 8)
Just make a little list in a comment or something. I am curious |D
JUMPING ON THE BANDWAGON HERE and writing a 2010 journal...
first journal of '10 anyways...hmmm...
well. as i have told a few people (an astounding two) that i will do something that i haven't done before. and that is: making something FESTIVE for the holidays. you're right... i haven't made anything to celebrate any holidays... whereas i do celebrate Christmas/Easter/Valentines/Halloween/st. patties day/etc....yus. anyways. to kick off the new year, I'll introduce you to a new character!
'But Ren, you have so many!!'
And i realize this but I've had him for a while.
Mr. Vladimygous Cyn: Dynamite player of Texas Hold 'Em, Hypnotiq connoisseur, overall lady-killer, & guaranteed to love you or kick you in the gut and leave you for the buzzards.
Yes. That's him. My party boy, my...rocker boy. XD What species is he now? well... considering that most griffins are portrayed as having a bird-like head and the lower half (usually) being some kind of big cat... my portrayal of them well... you'll see |D
I'm sure Vlad might like you guys... as long as you can sing AC/DC with him in the finest hotels and drink till some hot chic asks you to go up to her room to 'rest' for the night and you agree and you find out that she stole all of your cash-money while you were in the post-secks stooper and...
As of today, i am starting a manga that I have never told anyone about nor have really explained any of the characters. the only one that you may have noticed was Yasu.
Yasu was a character of mine that i had for a yaoi rp between me and a friend of mine. but, you guys really havent heard from Kasìm, the char that i roleplayed.
The manga that i am starting was just going to be personal but i have decided that i will show it to you ^^ The story line has a bit more significance to me that it probably will to you but even so, i want you guys to enjoy it. Between Kasìm's drunken rages and Yasu's young mind trying to understand what's going on...the emotion that is conveyed between the two characters might make you hate Kasìm one page and love him the next. same goes for Yasu.
But, I want to share this manga with you because well...it's something that is fun to do and i know that some of you think that my Yasu doll is cute... but now, you get to see the actual char that inspired the doll ^^
The manga will be in the traditional right to left reading and will also be in grayscale (16 bit i think?).
anyways, soon i will present 気難しい/ビビッド (cantankerous / vivid)!!
A Strange thing called Love ~
Longing
Content
Stunned
Big Grin
Tender
